Tuesday, October 2, 2012

losing it

Have you ever been upset with your children?
How about your husband?
How about all of them at the same time?

How about all of them for several days in a row and then all at the same time on that day of the month when your hormones are through the roof and you think that if it gets just one ounce worse you will need to be committed?

I had one of those days recently.  I woke up in a bad mood, and it got worse as soon as...well I don't need to get into details or complain about all that - which will make sense in a minute.

I was almost home and I didn't want to go home. I was avoiding the chaos that I knew would cause me to lose it as soon as I walked in the door.

I am incredibly blessed to have a wonderful friend who totally gets it so I sent her a quick text "Please pray that I don't explode".  She texted back "Prayn".  I took a deep breath and drove into my yard.  But then decided I should clean the van a bit - then I wouldn't have to go in quite yet.  But soon the mess of the van started to annoy me...

...sigh...I would have to go in, so I walked to the house and me and my clutzy ole self tripped going up the stairs.  Banged my shin and fell on my hand. Well, that WAS IT, the straw that broke the camels back so to speak.  I sat down on the step and lost it.  I texted my darling friend and said "Pray harder"

Well, I sat there for while and rubbed my very minor almost nonexistent injuries, face dripping all over the place, texting back and forth with my friend.  Then the mosquitoes started to bite and I texted "Dang mosquitoes"  to which she replied "Gotta decide between the lesser of two evils - mosquitos or going in the house". and then she said "God said, get up off the step and go in the house. Or Else!"...sigh I knew I had to.

By then I was feeling a bit better, you know, less likely to lose it. So I got up and went in the house, the very quiet house - for the moment at least it was quiet.  I sat down at the computer to turn it on and while I waited for it to start I opened my very cool memory verse App called Remember Me. It is an amazing help to memorizing scripture!  I have been using it and I have been successfully memorizing verses.  Anyway, while I waited for the computer, I decided now was a good time for a new one from my list of many that I want to memorize.

I randomly picked one.  It was Philippians 2:14 Do everything without complaining or arguing.

I sure didn't want that one!  I randomly picked another one.
It was Proverbs 21:19 It's better to live alone in the desert than with a crabby, complaining wife.

UH OH!  Apparently it was not random.  God was speaking loud and clear, and obviously I needed to keep my big mouth shut!

I texted my friend the verses that came up and told her "You prayed too hard!"
Her response?  "Roflmbo"  For those of you who are not familiar with text lingo (Hi Mom!) that would mean "Roll on the floor, laughing my butt off".

Yep, that was it, and I started to laugh too. My whole day changed, my whole attitude changed and I was suddenly filled with gratitude. 

I am grateful for being aware when God is speaking to me
I am grateful that He gave us technology like Smart phones and memory verse Apps
I am grateful for friends that get it
I am grateful that all I have to do it text "Please pray for me" or even "Pray harder"
And I am especially grateful for my family who puts up with me!

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